Tired



Thoughts of running long since gone
My body's too tired to leave the ground
But wearily it trundles on
Resolutely Yetholm-bound

Thoughts of thinking long since gone
My mind's too tired to contemplate
It does enough to steer me on
Through dancing chickens on the gates

Thoughts of feeling long since gone
My soul's too tired to ache or soar
But seemingly it cries and laughs
In ways it never has before

Yet thoughts of wanting never fade
My heart is constant through it all
When body, mind and soul are gone
It's heart that's left to greet the wall

______

I've completed the Spine twice and one of my abiding memories is how tiredness takes different, perhaps more profound forms as the race progresses. Yet, you never stop wanting it. 

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